| megan louise, spencer coll, 4L. |
[Sep. 8th, 2008|12:40 am] |
today is a year since september 8, 2007.
today is a first of many years
with my spencer.
i love him.
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| my stummy is hungerz. |
[Jan. 26th, 2008|08:29 pm] |
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i'm tired of being the one who does everything.
i'm tired of having to make the call.
i'm tired of having to start the text convo.
i'm tired of thinking i'm a bad friend.
i'm tired of feeling like i'm a bad friend.
all of my friends make me feel this way.
except for sarah when she was in town.
spencer makes me feel this way when we're arguing.
which isn't as bad, but still isn't good.
i'm done trying.
nobody ever calls to see how ii am..
or what iii'm doing.
and when i don't, i'm the bad person.
bull shit. |
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| my life was supposed to be so much better. |
[Dec. 19th, 2007|09:58 pm] |
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i hate to fight with sam.
i hate that we are fighting right now.
i hate that i am such a jerk.
and that sam is a jerk back.
i just want to be forgiven,
but i guess i was asking for it.
lame night #2 |
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| there's an ad on this page: indie movie club. NICE!! |
[Dec. 16th, 2007|09:15 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  thirsty | ] |
my eyez still hurt.
sarah's coming home.
kelly's coming home.
I'M stoked.
i can't wait to get my camera charger and ps2 back.
i hope spencer doesn't go blind,
and that christmas this year is amazing.
i wish two specific people were still in my life,
and that my stomach would stop growling. |
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| you stupid? |
[Dec. 11th, 2007|09:48 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | pessimistic | ] |
today sucked.
AND it made me HATE christmas.
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| i love diabetes. |
[Dec. 3rd, 2007|11:34 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  sleepy | ] |
work sucked tonight.
fuck work.
spencer ruled today.
fuck spencer.
lol.
j/k. |
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| i wish you knew how bad i wish you were here. |
[Nov. 16th, 2007|10:54 pm] |
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| |  confused | ] |
i wish everyone knew as i well as i do that you can't just say you love somebody. you have to actually show that you do. you have to show it everyday no matter what the situation is or how bad you don't want the word l-o-v-e to even be in existance. love is faithful and kind. therefore, you must BE faithful and kind.
not just say that you are. |
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| fuck the world, kill em DEAD. |
[Nov. 8th, 2007|11:50 pm] |
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i really hate living with my mom.
i want sam to be serious about the apt.
because it's something that i really want.
i get to hang out with her tomorrow.
ask me how stoked i am. |
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| california. hah. |
[Oct. 8th, 2007|10:41 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | lonely | ] |
i need sam mcdonald.
i need spencer sommer.
i need spencier lehman.
i need adrianna michel.
i need elyse myers.
i need panera bread.
i need fort wayne.
i want fort wayne. |
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| is it all right if i pee on the phone? |
[Oct. 3rd, 2007|10:36 pm] |
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| |  excited | ] |
i love how megan and i never argue and how she washed my jeans for saturday.
as much as i hate indianapolis, i love what it has done to sam & me.
it's weird having only two friends around. like...
i don't know how i've survived without spencier, alexa, addie, and RJ.
it really sucks to even think about it. i miss them all so much.
spencer sommer is the best boyfriend i have ever had.
and i'm not just stoked about him, he really is.
bf and bff's awesome...
indy..not so much. |
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| the people upstairs suck at singing. |
[Sep. 28th, 2007|11:36 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | sleepy | ] |
addie is coming to visit me tomorrow. i'm so stoked.
spencer was going to SURprise me tomorrow.
but i don't think he is coming anymore.
even if it isn't a surprise,
i still want him here.
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| with my one last gasping breath, i'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt. :D |
[Sep. 25th, 2007|01:06 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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If you feel as if someone is pushing your emotional buttons, it is best to talk to this person privately. A public response could be embarrassing and may not help alleviate the situation. Discretion is key as the circumstances will respond better to behind-the-scenes resolution, rather than public confrontation. Remember, you can be strong while being subtle.
haha who is that someone?
JOHN. |
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| he thinks he can dominate me...hah. |
[Sep. 20th, 2007|03:51 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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SPENCER SOMMER! and i have talked so much between today and yesterday. it's awesomeSCHAWESOME. i think maybe i trust him a little now....a little, maybe? like..i don't mind talking to him about things. or more like...i don't even think about not saying what's on my mind. i kind of love talking to him about everything, which is really wonderful.
i hate it how i'm not very trusting, but i'm very forgiving.
those two just don't mesh well. |
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| she got a 47 out of 50 on THAT?~! |
[Sep. 19th, 2007|09:29 pm] |
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You aren't able to jump from one topic to another as you often do. It's as if there is a something attaching your emotions to everything you encounter now and your regular lightheartedness isn't enough to shake it. Even if you do feel uncomfortable sinking deeper into a particular issue, don't fight it. You won't make anything easier and you'll still have to deal with the situation before you move on.
i wonder who knows what that means.
i'm guessing sam && spencer. |
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| this weekend ruled. why does today suck so badly? |
[Sep. 17th, 2007|10:14 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | lonely | ] |
i haven't been in such a bad mood since forever.
matthew keeps calling, but i don't want to answer...i kind of wish it was spencer who was calling, but it's so comforting to know matt cares.
i really hate life. |
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